I wish I was Never a Mother

Matar Makhana Kebab
February 27, 2018
Burnt Corn Soup
March 11, 2018

It was a lazy afternoon and I was just sitting next to my sleeping baby, doing nothing. Yes, doing nothing, sounds fascinating right after you are a mom? I was quite disturbed mentally and just wanted to think over what is that which is pinching me, which is bothering me. As thoughts took over my mind about how my days, weeks and months were going, there was just one thing coming in my mind again and again – I wish I was never a Mother.

While doing a chore, I forget midway,
Because I am tired all day
That time I wonder,
I wish I was never a Mother.

Seeing you learn things like walking, talking or finishing your meal
I cannot express how proud I feel
But the heartache I feel when you fall down and suffer
That time I wish I was never a Mother.

Stepping out of the house cannot be without a reason,
As after you I have lost my freedom
That time I hear myself blabber,
I wish I was never a Mother.

Seeing you giggle and laugh,
Immediately makes my sorrows to half,
Still like a duffer,
Why I wish I was never a Mother.

Your naughtiness never seem to decrease,
This doesn’t even let me eat in peace
That time I wonder,
I wish I was never a Mother.

You amaze me by learning things, which are not even taught
And love me no matter what
At that moment, I feel rather
I do not deserve to be a Mother.

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